My journal

What happened between April 14 and 19? Not much.
All in all it was a typical week (as if anything is ever typical!). Go to school, avoid schoolwork except where necessary, spend the majority of my evening hours with my fianc Tom, chatting with him over the internet (he lives in California), send some emails, work on web pages, and get more sleep than necessary. It's a pleasant lifestyle, but not ideal from a productivity standpoint. I seem to get lots of work-related things accomplished, but actual stuff that will have a direct impact on my grades here... I seem to be lacking. Ah, but isn't that always the way I do it?

Saturday, April 20
I woke up at 2pm. result of the messed-up sleep schedule I'd created for myself.
I stayed up REALLY REALLY late over the weekend. I can't even recall exactly why or exactly how late now, but it was far past anything a "normal" person would do. Stay up all night (usually 'till 3am, sometimes as late as 5 or 6, wake up at 2 or 3 in the afternoon). But such is my usual - becoming nocturnal... especially on weekends.

Sunday, April 21
Decided I wanted to get out of the city. Anyway, Sunday is mom’s and Sara’s day.
We went to Bush Gardens. She forced me to go four times!!!!!
on Gwazzi. No, when I was riding, I was thinking, “that everything with me is ok? I did pay almost $50 just to be afraid? Hahaha”
But was really wonderful day, we do not have to hurry anywhere, and we have a lots of fun (besides Gwazzi)


Monday. April 22
I woke up early morning at 10:00 AM, because I have to take my daughter to the doctor for a check-up before Girl Scout camp. After the visit we went out to eat lunch, was to late to cook at home, because I was late to school anyway
Evening: talking with my fianc over the Internet. There is the best software to talk “Paltalk”. No long distance chargeJ. I think that the first time I heard his voice I just fell in love with it...it's so smooth and just lovely. Words can't even describe it…
Besides talking with him I was 50% busy doing my homework.

Tuesday April 23
Overslept my only class for the day – 1:00 PM. Yesterday I came back from school around 10:00 PM. About 11:00 PM I started to doing my homework assignments (during chatting with Tom of course), I have finished around 4:00 AM and somehow couldn't get to sleep when I tried to around 4am, so went to sleep more like around 7 or 8. No wonder I overslept my 1:00PM class. Not a real issue though, the class is easy anyway. To miss the class is not a concern. (Although I always feel bad missing a class, sleeping through one seems morally so much better... never understood that about myself.).
I should study, six weeks is gone, the exam is coming next week, but I did not open my book yet…I decided to study.
That’s all today. But just let me clear things again. I'm only going to read a chapter per week unless I have more time.

Wednesday, April 24
Well. Today is *thinks a minute* day. I was slightly late to school today. My own fault, although for some reason I chose to take it out on Tom. I don't know why I do that.. It's like when he's upset I get upset and last night he was upset. Just wasn't feeling well, we all know how that goes. I just got mad because he didn't want to talk about it, I didn't respect that fact that he just didn't feel well and that there either wasn't a reason, or he didn't want to talk about it. It was unfair of me to do that and I'm very sorry.. But yet, this morning I got up late and took it out on him. Something is not right with that. I will be looking into what's going on in my head.. Maybe I should begin to read some psychology articles on the web? Just to understand myselfJ
Tom, I love You, Thank you for listening about my stupid concerns and fears.

Thursday, April 25
Is time to look at my work assignment on the classes, which I am taking online.
Ups.
Seems like I have a lot to do,
OK, I will do part of it tonight, and I will finish tomorrow.
Sometimes I want to be different: systematic, solid, make a good appearance about me. But, on the other hand: why?
That is the way I am, and why should I change?
If somebody doesn’t accept me, lets say: it is his problem.
I work really hard if I like something, if this is really worth it … for example computer, if I start work on it, I will work until I solve the problem, because I like it. I lake to read about that, gather new information, but I hate memorize definitions for the test, than…. Why
Should I memorize them?
Should I upset and irritate myself?


Friday, April 26
I don’t have much time for my journal entry today because I woke up as usual around 11:00 AM.
Since my daughter is not home, I have time to do my homework.
When she comeback everything at home will turn
Around her: dog, two cats and me. That way is going to be until
The late evening, until she goes to bed. Than I will have time for myself, my fianc and my computerJ
My daughter is “time – consuming” J
She asked so many questions, and I don’t know, who knows the answers….